Birthday Month!

If you live in a cave and don’t realize it, yes my Birthday is in July! I normally go over the top in discussing and talking about my birthday, but this year was different. I’m thinking the virus as something to do with it. I have been feeling so melancholy since the beginning of July. The Fourth of July time was the worst of it. I reached out to family and said I need a zoom call, I need to connect with those that I love and haven’t seen in a while. It was nice to connect with them and felt better afterwards.

So for my birthday this year, we celebrated with two of my very best friends. And the week before we went up to Flagstaff with my g/f for a get away with our hubbies. It was nice to get away.

I do want to thank those of you that sent me wishes or gifts for my day, I really do appreciate you all so very much.

Update on my weight journey, I’m up 8 pounds from before the Pandemic. That is not too bad, especially since I have had pretty much no exercise. Our heat is crazy right now and even getting up at 5 am to walk it is in the high 80’s and I just cant really walk in that weather. But not to worry, I’m still on my journey and have a bit to go until I hit my goal.

I hope you are all stay safe and wearing your damn mask!! If you don’t want to wear a mask, just remember you are wearing it for people like me, not for yourself.

Hugs ~ Dawn Marie

I made this t-shirt for a niece of mine :)

Catching Up!

WOW, it has been a minute since I updated my blog and shame on me. Actually I wasn’t doing anything worthy of sharing, LOL.

I hope everyone is doing well and are still taking precautions when venturing out. We have been to a couple of places, but we never leave home without our mask.

I have been getting my IVIG infusions to boast my levels and they are helping. In February my levels were in the 300’s and last month they read in the 600’s which are within a normal range. But I am continuing with them and in fact I am scheduled for one on Tuesday.

I scheduled a few Trivia Cam Shows on VNA, if you are a member of my site, you can view the show free!! Just follow the VNA links in the Members area. My regular cam show will be Monday, June 22nd!! Oh and I have prizes for Trivia Cam.

Ok, I promise I will start taking more pics to share on my blog and watch for a HOT new video to come soon!!!

Take care of yourselves!!!

XOXO ~ Dawn Marie

How are you doing?

If you are reading this, you must be in some type of lockdown like me. I have pretty much been in the house for about three or four weeks now. I do go on my walks as I’m able to do that without being in contact with others. Last weekend we did a couple happy hours. Friday we had our single female neighbor over and we stayed more than 6 feet apart and Saturday I went to my g/f Wendy’s house and again did the same thing. Tomorrow we are having the three of them here and keeping our distance. It is hard not seeing others and the five of us are pretty much isolated from others.

I’m kind of treading water as far as my weight, no real loose or gain. I need to kick my ass in gear and not let this pandemic derail the progress I have made.

And be sure you are checking my site for Trivia Cams, I’m doing a couple each week to help all of us pass some time..

Please take care of yourself and those you love.

Hugs from a distance, Dawn Marie


I have been so blessed to have received gifts in the last few weeks and I needed to take this time to thank them. During these difficult times, I want you to know that I appreciate you thinking of me.. Much love to you all, and PLEASE be safe and take care of each other.

If there is something special you would like to see me in, just let me know and I can add it to my wishlist.. View my Amazon Wishlist!

Hugs and Kisses, Dawn Marie

Past due catching up!

Well I’m a little late in posting since my little get away. With that said, I did have a great trip visiting with my fam in Chicago and Kentucky. I also was able to sneak in a last minute visit with a “friend” the night before I left Chicago, you might have seen the update on my site of the selfie I took the morning after?!?

Where am I in my weight loss journey? I had a slight gain, less than two pounds during my two weeks of travel, but I’m back on track. My meeting on Saturday I am down a total of 50.8. I am actually meal prepping for this week so that I know I will stay on track. As always, I thank you all for your support and encouragement.

Lastly, I wanted to talk a minute about my overall health. I realized this past week that I am coming up on my 5 year anniversary of being diagnosed with Follicular Lymphoma. It really does not feel like it has been 5 years, but here we are!! I must say, I feel better today than I can ever remember and I am so very blessed. I know there are sooooo many people out there that have it so much worse than I ever did. But with that said, that first year was life changing and it really makes you think about like and the choices you make. Right now I am getting checked every three months, I go in and draw labs to check all sorts of things, LOL. Since I came back from Chicago/Ky sick my Dr had me go in for an IVIG which is a treatment that helps boast my immune system and I’m having another one in March. My levels are always low and just a side affect of my cancer. I go in and I’m there for like four hours getting the IV. This treatment I had a couple side affects, which are normal for this drug.. two days after I had a horrible headache and the chills. But like I said, I can’t really complain.

I have had a couple people ask about my wishlist, so I went and updated it with a few items.. some are personal and some I will shoot in. I have been very motivated lately and shooting a lot of new content, so if you want to see me in something special, send it to me. CLICK HERE FOR WISHLIST

Just checking in, not much to share.

Hello and happy Monday!! I am sorry, but I don’t have a lot to share today. I am currently in Chicago visiting with family. When I leave here I am heading to Kentucky to visit with my siblings and their kids. Only my younger sisters daughters know I am coming, it is a secret for everyone else, so shhhhhhh. We don’t want to spoil the surprise.

I am still doing my WW thing, just kind of taking it easy with traveling. I’m not going off the rails eating, but not eating as structured as I would be at home. I won’t be home until 2/3.

Lastly, just want to take a moment to say, remember to tell your loved ones just how you feel about them, never leaving them with any type of certainty. With the passing of Kobe Bryant and the rest of the people that were on the helicopter with him, it just makes you re-evaluate things. So very sad for all the lives that were loss and my heart just goes out to all the friends and family members.

As always, I thank you all for all your continued support and encouragement, you all mean the world to me.

I hope you have an amazing week!!!

Hugs & Kisses ~ Dawn Marie

WOOHOO I did it!

I had my WW weigh in yesterday and I hit the 50 pound total weight loss, well actually 50.6!!!  I really was not expecting it this week, but I am so happy!!  I think I have 25ish more pounds to go..  So my one year with WW is February 23rd, that is just 6 weeks away.  I think my next goal is a pound a week and of that two weeks I will be traveling, ugh. 

As always I thank you all for the support and encouragement, it means so much to me!!! 

Did you see my last Update?   New Year – New Selfies?  Think you could handle taking pics of me??  Check them out and let me know what you think. 

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My very first Podcast!

Ok, my very first Podcast has been published.  After Christmas I sat down in my kitchen with my friend Dr. Dave aka AzGigolo on twitter.  I met him many years ago and last year he decided to start a Podcast The Stage’s Stable @Stagstable .  So when he asked me to do his podcast of course I said yes.  We discussed how I started in the “lifestyle” and such.  I hope you enjoy it and PLEASE LEAVE FEEDBACK ON THE PODCAST and let me know what you think.  You can find his podcast on most platforms… The Stag’s Stable.

The Stag's Stable









Hugs & Kisses ~ Dawn Marie

Weekly Check in

I think I am going to surprise you all with how organized I am going to be in 2020!!  I said I would check in after my weigh in and I put it on my calendar to do that today and look at me following through with shit, LOL.  

Ok, so I had a pound weight gain, not bad for a holiday week, but now it is time to get down to business, LOL.  I am 3.2 pounds away from my next goal of 50 pounds.  My goal is to be there by my weight in before I head to Chicago and that will be on the 18th and this is totally doable, just have to make the right decisions.  

Also, I wanted to let you know that Thursday is our ONE HOUR FREE MEMBERS CAM for any member to my site.  All you need to do is follow the VNALive links inside the club area!!!  PLUS you know you get access to ALL the VNALive shows with your membership, right?  So not just mine but any of the ladies that do cam shows on the site, so take advantage of that!!!

I got my hair done on Saturday, I’ll post a pic later this week.  I haven’t taken one yet as I haven’t washed my hair, LOL.  I try to wait at least a day after getting it colored before I wash it.  I did go a little bit shorter, it is right at my jaw line now.  I’ll post a pic on twitter later today after my walk or you can wait and see it here, LOL.

I hope you have a wonderful week and as alway, you can comment here, email me, Tweet meTEXT ME, or join my ONLYFANS and message me there… I’m always here for ya!!

Hugs & Kisses ~ Dawn Marie

1/04/2020 Weigh in

So the keychain is for all the weight I have lost and they did a winter challenge and the sun is for the summer challenge. They do these to get people at the meetings.

Happy New Year!!

Happy 2020!!  Wow does that sound crazy or what?  This past year flew by, funny how that happens when you are an adult and as a child it feels like time just creeps by.   I hope you all had a wonderful holiday season, ours was very nice, just busy as always, LOL.  We still have our Ugly Sweater Party which is on the 11th.  I know it is after the holidays, but the date just works.  Last year after visiting Chicago I came home sick and we had to postpone our party and the later date just worked so much better.  I will be sure to share a pic or two with you, although my sweater is more cute than ugly, LOL.

I do want to thank all of you that are reading this, for doing just that, reading it.  It truly means a great deal to me that you take the time to read it and to catch up with what is going on in my life.  So, Thank you!!  Also, if you sent me wishes or a gift and I someone missed replying and thanking you.. THANK YOU!!!

Weight loss update..  Well I have been flirting with the 50 pound total loss for about two months now, LOL.  I lose and then I gain and then I lose and then gain and it is 100 percent on me and my own choices, I own that and accept it.  I probably will not his it this Saturday, but I’m going to try my best to hit it on the 11th.  I’ll keep you posted on my progress or lack there of, lol.  I also made goals for 2020 and I’ll share that with you in the pic section.  But thank you soooooooo much for your support and encouragement!!!  

I am looking forward to what 2020 has in store for us and I hope we all have a wonderful new year!!!

Cheers ~ Dawn Marie

Almost time…

So, who is ready for the holidays?  Are you all done with shopping?  Have your tree up and presents wrapped and ready under the tree?  Do you do stockings? Will you be celebrating at home or going someplace else to celebrate with family and/or friends?  

Well I have my tree up, nothing under it but the tree skirt and my cats, LOL.  I have a few things, but have several things still left to get.  We will be spending Christmas at our house with family and friends.  We did Christmas in Chicago last weekend and we had a wonderful visit.\

As for my weight journey.. I gained 3 pounds during my time away, but I’m good with it, I’ll get it this week!!!  Need to get more activity in this week :) 

I want to thank Carl and an anonymous gift giver for the holiday gifts they sent me from my wish list.



WOW it is December 3rd, just 22 days until Christmas, just crazy!!  Always feels like this time of the year just flies by and then it is the new year before you know it.  So are you done with your holiday shopping?  We are done with some, LOL…  We are headed to Chicago this week to spend the weekend with family there and celebrate Christmas with them.  We started doing this years ago and it is an enjoyable time.

One thing with us going to Chicago, I put off taking out my holiday decorations until after we return.  Remember, I have a little rascal of a cat, not calling anyone one out, but Tucker, LOL.. I don’t want to come home to a tree in the middle of my living room and I don’t want my son to have to deal with it while we are gone.  My Mom loved Christmas and all the music and decoration and she has passed that on to all her kids…  Can’t wait to get my things up.

Well I am slightly, and I really mean slightly disappointed to say I did not make my “mini goal” in regards to my weight.  I wanted to have lost 50 pounds by this past Saturday, but with the holiday I had a slight weight gain and was up .2 of a pound.. making my total loss 49.6.  I will not be weighing in again until the 14th after my Chicago trip and I hope to hit it by then.  Now I just need to come up with a new goal!!  

Happy Thanksgiving!!

I wanted to take a moment to wish those near and dear to me a very Happy Thanksgiving!!  I am so very grateful for all of you that have support over the years.  You have supported me through all the ups and downs of my life since being on the web.  You all have touched my life and make me feel so very special.  I hope you have a wonderful holiday if you are in the states and celebrating.  PLEASE be safe and have a festive day and enjoy the time with your family and friends!!!

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New outlook and mindset

With the change in my lifestyle, ie.. weight loss, I have been looking at other aspects of my life and have decided I want to use a planner and try to be more productive with my time and energy.  Someone I follow uses this brand of planner and I have found it on Amazon and added one to my list.  If you are looking for something to get one of your favorite redheads in your life, LOL… this would be an awesome gift, hehe.  I have also added a few accessories 

Approaching Thanksgiving…

Approaching Thanksgiving, what are you Thankful for?  I am thankful for all my current and past members, y’all mean the world to me and I appreciate you so very much!!  Let’s be real, without you, I would not still have this online life, so Thank you!!!

I’m very thankful for my health and my decision to lose weight and get into better shape.  I’m doing well on the weight part, need to kick my butt into the shape part, LOL.  As of this past Saturday, I am down 49.8 pounds!!!  Yep, just .2 away from my little mini goal I made for myself.  I find if I set little goals to achieve that it makes it easier for me.  Fingers crossed I have a good week and my weigh in on Saturday I make my mini goal, but man Thanksgiving week???  LOL.

I’m shooting a new video tomorrow morning that I will have posted for Black Friday, so watch for that to come later this week.


Random Tuesday Update.

Happy Tuesday!!  Hope this finds you doing well and preparing for the holidays!!  Are you staying home for Thanksgiving, will you be traveling?  Will you be shopping on Black Friday?  Have you started your holiday shopping?

Our little family here in Arizona, that is my immediate family and our friends we consider family, are going to my girlfriends house this year.  She is having her yard remodeled and it should be done by T-day.   We are having Cornish Pasty for dinner, not your traditional dinner but I’m happy with it as I’m not a bit fan of turkey, lol.  

As for holiday shopping, I will not be out on Black Friday.  I worked them for about 10 years and I’m done with that, LOL..  perhaps I’ll do some online shopping and NO I have not started my shopping and I am in Chicago to celebrate with our fam there the first weekend in December!!!!  Think I need to get busy.

My weight loss is continuing.. I’m down a total of 47.2 and I had set a goal for myself to loose 50 pounds by Thanksgiving, or should I say my last weigh in in November… So, I’m very close!!!  Again I want to thank everyone that has supported and encouraged me during my journey, y’all mean the world to me.

I want to thank everyone that has sent me gifts from my wishlist,  you guys are the best!!!!

Shame of me!!

How could I have gone over a month without updating my blog?!? Shame, shame, shame on me!!!  So, let me catch you up!!

The weather was below normal last week and it allowed me to finally start my glider project.  I am about 95% done with it and I will post a pic when I have it 100% completed.  But I am LOVING it so far and I’m just beyond thrilled with the glider.

My weight loss has kind of stalled and I am taking 100% ownership of it and I am committed to get back on track and to get where I want to be!!!

Wrapping up September!

The last day of September, just crazy how quickly the year has gone by.  I spent 11 days in Chicago visiting my family and it was WONDERFUL!!  Now I have to wait until December when we go to celebrate Christmas.

Our weather here I believe has finally broke and I have been able to get walks in early in the day and it has been so nice.  I have not weighed in since the Saturday before my trip, but I will keep you posted after my meeting this Saturday.  But I will say, I had more energy during my recent trip and able to walk without being all winded.  This is what we call a Non Scale Victory.  I am also down to just three pairs of jeans, two of which fit and one I will have to loose a bit more weight before I can get them zipped up, LOL

Lastly, if you have my SnapChat, I will be closing it at the end of October.  I WILL BE POSTING something new every single day until October 31st.  So if you ever thought about joining it, now is the time…

Happy September!!

It is September, but it is still so freakin’ hot here!!  Last I checked it did look like Mon – Wed it was going to be in the upper 90’s before going back in triple digits.  Those three days the temps look cool enough in the morning that I can get my walk in outside!!  That I am VERY happy about!!!

New month also mean we have a Members Cam on Monday..  Follow the VNALive links in the club area and join me.  

We have been busy lately with shooting and working on a concept for something new and just life in general.  I am headed to Chicago on the 17th and can’t wait, it has been too long since I have seen the fam.  

Now for some news regarding my weight loss journey.. today I was down .8 pounds for a total of 43 pounds. so, ounce by ounce I am getting it done!!!


Howdy Y’all!!  Hope you all are having a wonderful summer and if you are were it has been raining and flooding a lot, I hope the weather changes for you soon.  We of course are still well into the 100 degree days of our summer and I’m sick of it, LOL.  I miss getting up and walking in the morning and can’t wait to get back to that when our weather changes.  I joined a new gym a couple weeks ago and have been doing cardio and yoga there, but I’m not sure that yoga is for me.  I am experiencing pain in my knee when there is a movement that requires me to be on all four or to put direct pressure on the knee.  This is the knee that I feel on when I slipped that day when walking.  I might look into a water class or perhaps a dance type class.  Today I actually did weights, which I haven’t done in a LONG time and I’m feeling it, LOL.

We have been spending some time with Adora lately, and let me tell you see is such a sweet, funny and very sexual person, hehe..  if you are not following her, you should.

Oh, my weight journey, it has been a bit since I updated… I am down 41.4 pounds and still a way to go, but still doing it…  It is step by step, pound by pound.    Again I can not thank you all enough for the encouragement and support!!

Kisses ~ Dawn Marie

Motivated August!

If you are following my weight loss journey you know it has been a steady loss for me and I am good with the progress thus far.  But I will say that July was just blah for me.  I was just unmotivated and really did not put much effort into my “activities”.  I still was able to maintain a loss, but not a great one, lol I think it was like just over 2 pounds.  But with that said, I am motivated going into August!!!  I have even set goals for myself and I will post a pic below of those goals.  But overall, I am happy, I’m down a total of 40.2 pounds in 23 weeks!!

Rob and I met a couple on Saturday night that are considering having a site.  I think y’all would like her, she has a very fun personality, so maybe we will have a new lady on our grid in the future?  Time will tell LOL

We are going to a Diamondback game tonight, invited by “civilian” friends, LOL, those are friends that know what we do, but they do not partake, LOL  our tickets are apparently right next to the Dugout, we actually have to go through the dugout to get to our seats.   Oh and did I mention, free food and drinks!!  I’m going to take some pics to share with y’all.

Oh on a medical note, I had my quarterly check up with my Oncologist and all looks good.  We have decided to do the iGg Infusion every four weeks until the end of the year.  My levels are always low since doing Chemo and since I am at risk to get and keep colds and whatnot due to these low levels.    We are doing it because I will be traveling on airplanes and to colder weather in Chicago.  The last few times I have traveled to Chicago during cooler weather I have gotten a cold that I have not been able to get rid of without going to the dr, LOL.  So this is precautionary.  

Again, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU for all the continued support and encouragement throughout my journey so far!!!

Hugs & Kisses ~ Dawn Marie

Weekly update…

Happy Hump Day Y’all!!!  Hope everyone is enjoying their summer, it is torture here!!  We are currently in our Monsoon Season.  Monday we had a late dust storm and overnight last night we had crazy thunder and a bit of rain.  I can’t wait until we get a full on monsoon rain.

Well my Birthday was last week and I had a great one.  Thanks to all that reached out to me ;) 

This weekend we are going to go see Once Upon a Time in Hollywood in the theatre.  I feel like you really need to see Quentin Tarantino movie in the theatre and I have an old “acquaintance” that is in the movie.    And perhaps a pool day on Sunday with my g/f, although I have not even asked her yet, lol.

Oh, I’m not sure if I mentioned it previously, but I opened my Only Fans back up and I’m adding to it several times a week, so check it out.

Hope you like the Pics I have to share with you today!!  Oh and I am down another pound for a total of 37.8!!  Thanks again everyone for your encouragement.

It’s My Birthday Week!

Y’all know I love me some Birthday and yep mine is FINALLY here, LOL.  Wednesday, July 17th is my day and I’ll be 54!!  We had a little get together this past weekend with friends and celebrated mine and a g/f’s bday that was on the 7th.  We had a great evening with friends.  

Thursday we are going to see a comedy show with another friend of ours that is here from Canada.  And not sure what we will do for my bday or if we will wait and celebrate on the weekend.  Doesn’t matter, I love my day, hehe.

Yesterday we had an event at the studio with some local girls.  We got to meet some new girls and they got the opportunity to see our studio and shoot some new content.

NOW… on to my weight loss journey.   Last week I had a slight game, but then came back with a loss.  My weigh in Saturday, I was down one pound with a total of 36.8!!  I’m still very driven and pushing myself to the next level, little bit at a time is just great with me!!

Hugs & Kisses ~ Dawn Marie

It is fucking hot here, LOL

Incase you couldn’t tell, AZ Summer is here and it is fucking HOT!!!  Shocker I know, lol.  Well I have been getting up at 5 am to get my walks in before the heat, and that was when it was just pushing 80 degrees.  I looked at the forecast this week and at 5 a.m. we are suppose to be upper 80’s and into the 90’s, I can’t do that crap.  So I will be putting that gym membership to use, LOL.  

So this past week I had a slight gain, .2!  I’m not thrilled with it, but I’m not upset either, it reflects the choices I made the week of the holiday.  One of those choices was having cocktails three days that week and that is something I never do.. oh well, it is what it is.  Like my son told me “You can’t crush it every week”..  

I am signed up for SextPanther if you are interested in texting with me, this would be the way to do it!!

And I relaunched my OnlyFans if you are interested..  

Last week I was finally able to find a glider to match the chairs I refurbished last year.  A woman had it on craigslist and I got it for $38.  I can not wait for the summer weather to go away so I can start the refurbishing on this, there is a bit of rust I will have to sand and take care of, but I’m super stoked!!

Hope y’all had a wonderful July 4th and that this week goes by quickly for you all.

Hugs & Kisses ~ Dawn Marie

My Journey.


Just wanted to update everyone that has been following my weight loss journey.  I had my meeting yesterday and had another good week.  I set a goal for myself early last week and I told Rob, this is my first goal I am setting and I’m positive I can achieve it.  I want to have lost 40 pounds by my Birthday which is July 17.  I have two meetings before my birthday and after yesterdays loss, I should be good.

I also have been walking like crazy.  My goal is to walk 5 out of 7 days.  Last week I walked 6 days!!  I am currently getting up at 5 am to try to get my walks in before the heat.  Not sure how long I will be able to do this it is getting warm now, LOL..  but I still have the gym.

Thank you as always for all the support and encouragement, you all are the BEST!!!!

Hugs & Kisses ~ Dawn Marie